lets talk abt smthng i like.
i like grey's anatomy. have you watched it? its the best show in the entire universe. Why? it mirrors life. it mirrors the life of an average girl. it reflects the kind of questions that u fathom in ur mind, and the best part of it all???? they provide you with no answers. the characters are human, they are faced with everyday situations and they err, they make the same mistakes we do, rather much make the same kind of decisions we make. i think thats the main reason women( lets not discriminate the "men wit heart"-which means not all of u qualify under this category) tend to connect with these soaps. these are EVERYDAY SITUATIONS. they're not some kickass action flick with a ruggedly handsome hero with a flashy gun and a hot female with an equally stunning body on a secret mission whatsoever. the kind of movies most guys drool over.. GET A LIFE! no way in hell wld u get a life like hmm..lemme think who...jet li, keanu reeves in matrix or that guy in too fast, too furious and no way in hell wld u even get a girl close to lookin like monica bellucci, so instead of fantasizing ( whats with this anyway? u bunch of sick losers) and being total assholes like most of u are, why dont u get ur ass down to reality and start appreciating the shows that really matter? and dont even get me started on football. okay, back on track with my grey's anatomy...u see, getting into a relationship is not easy, especially when a woman is faced with choices. grey's anatomy addresses the pertinent issues of life. when faced with choices, why do women pick the option which is most likely to hurt them?????
lets talk abt myself in general. its not directly aimed at anyone, but generally aimed at a certain things thats been unnerving of late; so dont get presumptous.
1. i live by life by rules. if u find it hard to accept, u can stuff ur ass up the chimney for all i care. i do not accept iconoclastic attacks on my rules. to me, life is in no shades of grey. i intend to live it as simply as possible. either its this way or it aint. precepts makes it easier to face the challenges of life. it whittles it down and makes me much more comprehensible. and i aint changing them for u. and dont try arguing wit me that the way i live my life is wrong or rigid or narrowminded. it was a prudent decision on my part and jus because i dont think the way YOU do, doesnt make me narrow minded in any sense. it jus means that i stick by my policies.
2. dont be flippant to me. i've the least tolerance for any form of insolent behaviour. when i am conversing, dont shut me off. when i speak seriously, ive points to make, and i expect them to be heard. let me finish what i have to say and then handle it like a mature adult by voicing ur opinions. this is called basic courtesy. the moment i feel that there is no difference in talking to the wall and you, i will a) walk away b) put down the phone.
3. in any form of relationship there is a line. and i watch that line fiercely. do not cross that line. do not ask me anything which u know is too personal. if i hadnt talked to you before abt it, all the more, i wldnt want to talk to you abt it. REally personal details of mine which have no effect on you are basically no business of yours so you dont have to 1) clarify 2) question 3) deserve any form of reply.
4. respect me. dont just say that u respect me. show me that u respect me. when i say that i dont want to do it, issit very hard for u to understand? dont give me bull abt how emotions overwhelm you. they cant be uncontrollable, can it? i cant understand how you can say that u respect me and time and again you make me do the kind of things that i refuse to. why ask me to stop when i had already gone ahead and crossed the line already. once the mirror is broken, it cant be fixed to the way it was, right?
5. i hate liars and i hate bitches. lets focus on bitches first. if you have smthng to say, say it to my face. and when u do, u better know me well enough to judge or u had better get ur facts straight. dont pass on comments when u hardly know me, cuz ..reality check..u aint ms perfect either. and if ure a backstabbing bitch, i wldnt worry..cuz god takes care of those kinds and frm what ive seen..if ure one of those, u must have gotten ur fair due already. now liars, i dont forgive liars. white lie, perhaps. dont say things for the sake of saying of jus for the sake of making someone happy..in the long run, u lose ur credibility, so dont blame me on not trusting ur words. infact, i dont care what u live ur life by, jus dont behave in that way to me. cuz if u had been honest enuff in the past to hurt me, i dont see how a lil sincerity can do any more harm.
a lil smthng to munch on : sincerity came frm the latin(correct me if im wrong pls) word for sin cera. direct translation of sin cera is "without wax". in the past, when sculpting, errors are mended using wax. thus, a perfect sculpture wld be one without wax. thus, beyond reasonable doubt, there is beauty in sincerity.
6. dont be pussy whipped. you dont need to call for a conference( ur family, your best friends, your colleagues, ur entire list of "favourites" under msn, ur uncle's best friend's dog) to sort your personal problems. if u have a problem, analyse and think it over. do u doubt that capability of urs? not only are u broadcasting personal issues, if it involves another person, ure compromising the privacy of that party. so please do keep that in mind. and if u have that "sharity elephant" schematics going on and start raving on abt how you wld like to share "things that affect you with people who care for you" bull, spare me. repeat. spare me, okay? i wldnt want to be part of ur I- CANT-HANDLE-MY-PROBLEMS-AND-NEED-YOUR-OPINION-CUZ-IM-A-MORON BROADCAST. i need someone who has a good head on his shoulders and pretty much stand on his own two feet and not run an election to see which decision garners more votes.
7. when i have a problem that really bothers me, i tend not to talk abt it. i reckon its my brain's way of dealing with it. i need to accept the problem first. i need to think it over. i need to rationalise before i can come to terms with it and start talking abt it. so dont tell me that every problem can be solved by talking. if something really hurts me, i wldnt want to talk abt it. and frm what i learned the hard way,u shld offer me that much of space. what i've learnt is, when i did talk abt problems that bothered me and tho u sat by my side and saw the end of it,in the long run, u did throw it back at me reprehensibly at the most inopportune period. i take a long time to trust someone wid my problems, and the minute you rebuked me with what had happened, there is no way in hell wld i ever trust you with anything intimate to me. and why wld u wanna know what actions of urs bother me anyway? so that u can change yourself? whats the point? from what i come to know, you dont do that cuz u believe that ur actions are wrong and hurt me, u do so to placate me. i dont need any form of " i did that to please her" on ur side. i need someone who is genuinely not an asshole.
dear people, as u can read, ive been vehemently typing away, banging the keyboard, infuriated. if u identify any form of behaviour with the above, kindly do me a favour...
1) go to msn, click on my contacts, press block + delete
2) go to your phonebook on ur hp, click on delete contact. and when it prompts u to ensure if ure sure, click yes
thank you v much. its nearly 4am which spells nearly bedtime for me. have a good night sweet possums.
and so her story is told@ 9:42 AM
